Slow your footsteps down by 66%.

Put on your good headphone.

Pick a tune that goes well with your speed.

Crank up the volume to 83%.

Take off your glasses if you can.

And watch the city slow down for you.

中秋節就是要放煙火。

烤肉月餅什麼的都是其次，那些是大人在做的事，從小的記憶就是中秋放煙火，有時候還不止一攤，會去其他人家續攤放煙火。

那時候的父母都沒在管，一堆沒咧驚小朋友跟一些更危險的大朋友一起放煙火，沖天炮看是平行放還是往地上射還是拿在手上放。

現在的小朋友好像被管太多，沒有做蠢事的機會，其實小時候的蠢事是長大後美好的回憶，而且做蠢事的小朋友比較酷，永遠都有故事可以炫耀。

This got me thinking… 現在這個年紀停止做蠢事會不會太早？

More specifically, I stay up watching 新聞挖挖哇 almost every night (Monday to Friday that is, because they show reruns during the weekend, and I would have already seen them). I used to watch it because my mom does, and I find it a good way to spend some time with her. But over time I find myself watching it even when I’m by myself.

The show runs from 11pm to 12:30am. And after that I have to do some mindless web surfing for another hour or so before I can really go to bed, that pushes my bed time to 1ish to 2ish. That’s no good. Plus I’m picking up another habit of writing blog posts (like this one) before I go to bed, and this always take longer than I expect.

I remember back in 2009 when I came back for almost 6 months, the show that kept me up was 全民最大黨 (I still like the name 悶鍋, not sure why they changed it). Oh my how I have aged.

以前沒發覺，但外食要吃到青菜真的不容易。

昨天的兩餐都沒有青菜，即使想點店裡也沒賣。

魚排蛋包飯跟牛肉麵。

今天特別注意，選吃得到青菜的地方。

米糕跟擔仔麵。

不過這樣青菜好像還是不夠，看來只能自己煮才吃得到足夠的青菜吧。

星期天跟表姐表姊夫還有兩隻小的去樹屋和安平古堡。我還是第一次去樹屋，不然就是小時候去過忘記了。

妹妹在安平古堡的草叢找到一片四葉草，哥哥也想找一片，竟然不到幾秒真的又找到一片。

照片右邊的是雞蛋花。

兩年前貼過他們的照片，現在一個上小五一個小二，這學期剛好兩個都當班長，看來人緣不錯呦。

今天經過7-11忍不住習慣性地走進去，買了罐伯朗咖啡。喝第一口就覺得不太對，沒想像中的好喝，太甜了。晚上去超市看到’午後的紅茶’奶茶(好繞舌的商品)在特價，印象很好喝所以買了一瓶。結果一樣，不怎麼樣，也是太甜了。

也許這幾個月下來我的口味已經改變了，聽說癌細胞的生長會消耗大量的糖；或許因為現在沒了，我的身體也不再需要這麼多的糖分。

本來在超市想買以前常吃的餅乾，看到上面標的反式脂肪，又默默的把它放回去了。

I used to track who reads my blog. From the regular WordPress stats or Statscounter, which gives more detailed information such as the visitor’s IP address, OS, and browser versions. You can see referral links, or from which website the visitor comes from. Why? Because I can I guess. Well, I did use it to see if this girl I liked read my blog. It’s bad for a techie to get stalkish (or more precisely, counter-stalkish in this case).

I wanted to know if people read whatever I write, and I liked comments. But I was writing for my readers. I could never keep at it. Sometimes I don’t think I have anything interesting to write about. Other times I feel I’m over-exposing myself, especially when I know that people will read it, even who specifically.

Few days ago I wrote my first post with comments closed. It felt good. I was documenting what was on my mind, for myself. That was enough to keep me writing. Having visit counts, likes, or comments only distract me. Sure I would feel good knowing people enjoy reading my blog, but what if no one reads, or stops commenting? Does that mean I should stop too? I shouldn’t need to seek encouragement for something I enjoy doing already.

Now, write like no one is reading.

他問我，等好了之後想做什麼？

我想不出來。我不覺得這場病改變了什麼我想做的事，我想做的還是那些。

改變的是心態。過去我對自己是採高壓政策，不讓自己安逸，告訴自己現在很糟糕，要努力改變。不過這樣活得很痛苦，自己的標準永遠太高，達到了一個目標也沒想像中的開心，因為做得永遠不夠好。

應該要努力讓自己做得開心，好不好是其次。而開不開心大多是心態。有個研究說，環境的改變只能帶來短暫的快樂，過沒多久就回到正常；而心態或行為的改變卻能持續帶來好心情。

確定的是，想做什麼就趕快開始，因為時間說多不多，說少不少，只剛好夠浪費在對的人或對的事情上。不過說得簡單，我自己還是一頭霧水，哈。

從小吃到大的排骨飯

很多人問我台南有什麼好吃的，我都不知怎麼回答。我吃的都是家附近的，像這家不是什麼名店，甚至搬家後還比以前小，客人變少菜單也變小，不過吃慣了，偶而來還滿懷念的。

吃到一半，對面桌的阿桑問我 “弟弟你在掉頭髮喔？” 本來想建議我可以用什麼保養頭皮。真熱心 哈

吃完在附近閒晃，經過小學五六年級老師補習的教室。那時候班導師有半強迫的課外補習，一個禮拜好像一兩次，下課後就在那邊集合，不過小學有什麼好補我也想不透。記得以前常比誰先到，可是明明很討厭補習卻想衝第一個到，小朋友的想法很奇怪。現在那邊好像沒人住，附近很多矮房也都空著的樣子，不知道人都跑去哪了。我想很多老宅外型留著裡面重新裝潢，一定會很有特色。

今天中午在家吃火雞肉便當(舅媽買的，一輩子獨立慣了現在受人照料好不習慣)，陽台的門打開，一個人靜靜的吃便當。沒有電視的喧嘩，只有電冰箱低沉的嗡嗡聲，跟城市巷子裡該有的聲音。風很涼，電風扇都省了。