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There are days I get so annoyed with all the shit that’s happening that I can’t help but feel frustrated despite knowing ultimately none of the Mickey Mouse bullshit [1] matters when I’m in a hospital bed.

And today is one of those days.

[1] One of my favourite movie quotes of all time

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風和日麗的一天,台北氣溫20℃。早上雖然七點多就醒了,卻在被窩裡半夢半醒虛度了一個鐘頭才下床。

胡亂抓了幾片週日在迪化街買的水果乾充當早餐,眼睛盯著螢幕做些什麼我也不記得了。

中午到阪急吃了碗沾麵,不知怎麼這幾天很偏好種口味的食物。

下午到我最喜歡的cafe工作,聽著輕音樂和隔壁桌飛快的打字聲,專心的完成了些拖了好一陣子的工作。

 

幾個月來的生活習慣,彷彿從來沒間斷過,但有些人事物已悄悄變得不太一樣了。

It’s like the beginning of a new era.

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Photos are piling up in my hard drive once again. Not sure how I stopped uploading photos to Facebook but I do have this bad tendency of forgetting to keep up with things like that. Now that I’ve put that down on my todo list, I’ll be sure to get to it soon.

示意圖:

我又幫自己找了個工作了。

應該是下禮拜開始會去一間start-up實習,做手機的App (or ㄟ劈劈 as they call it)。我最多只能撥出一兩天的時間過去吧,但這個禮拜一定要惡補一下iOS的東西。他們好像以為我WordPress很強,要我幫他們寫plug-in,可是我從來沒自己動手做過,希望不會死太慘。

Been working lots and always running out of time for anything. Just went back to Tainan on Thursday and back to Taipei again on Saturday. Can’t believe I’m going to meet another company next Monday and possibly ask for even more work. As if I don’t have my hands full already :SImage

I miss summmmmmar

After a year of not doing much career-wise. Work start piling up all of a sudden. Last weekend I went to a tech career fair thing and spoke to quite a few companies. Of those, five I found intrigued. I didn’t take working in Taiwan too seriously because I thought the tech companies are still stuck in the early millennia, but apparently not these, probably because they are startups. Now I can’t wait to finish my current project, but seems like it will drag-on for quite some time, given the escalating scope I’m seeing.

I stopped updating few months back because one day I suddenly decided to make an effort to go to bed early everyday. 10-11pm that was. For health reason of course, not that I just learned that its a good habit, but I felt I should be more careful now for better recovery. Before I tended to write right before I go to bed, almost always after midnight. Somehow I felt particularly inspired during that time. Midnight melochony? When theres nothing good on tv and nothing u should be doing besides going to bed. A blank time slot. Meant for reflect if not recall or at worst regret.

Well. I wrote that about a year ago on a train ride and never got to update it. I actually procrastinated posting a post on the reason for why I procrastinated. Beat that!! Nothing special today, just feel like starting to pick up blogging again while still keeping myself in regular sleeping schedule. Have made a little to do list and everyday goals, gonna keep myself accountable this time.

If you ever tried to comment on my last few posts, you would notice that you can’t. I didn’t close the comment by accident. It was a concious decision and I’m sticking with it.

I used to track who reads my blog. From the regular WordPress stats or Statscounter, which gives more detailed information such as the visitor’s IP address, OS, and browser versions. You can see referral links, or from which website the visitor comes from. Why? Because I can I guess. Well, I did use it to see if this girl I liked read my blog. It’s bad for a techie to get stalkish (or more precisely, counter-stalkish in this case).

I wanted to know if people read whatever I write, and I liked comments. But I was writing for my readers. I could never keep at it. Sometimes I don’t think I have anything interesting to write about. Other times I feel I’m over-exposing myself, especially when I know that people will read it, even who specifically.

Few days ago I wrote my first post with comments closed. It felt good. I was documenting what was on my mind, for myself. That was enough to keep me writing. Having visit counts, likes, or comments only distract me. Sure I would feel good knowing people enjoy reading my blog, but what if no one reads, or stops commenting? Does that mean I should stop too? I shouldn’t need to seek encouragement for something I enjoy doing already.

Now, write like no one is reading.

昨晚跟朋友出去,簡單吃了碗滷肉飯(大家要記得不是”魯”肉飯喔。國外的同學要多看台灣新聞才會懂)跟魚皮湯,想找個地方聊天又不想花錢去人擠人的茶店,決定買7-11去成大喝。我喝無糖綠茶,可見我向健康飲食邁進的決心。不熱,不過有蚊子,被咬了就是該換地方坐了。一堆高中生晚上在那練舞,不是你想的那樣,她們都穿學校的運動服,而且就連背影都很不正,所以我們聊天很專心。

他問我,等好了之後想做什麼?

我想不出來。我不覺得這場病改變了什麼我想做的事,我想做的還是那些。

改變的是心態。過去我對自己是採高壓政策,不讓自己安逸,告訴自己現在很糟糕,要努力改變。不過這樣活得很痛苦,自己的標準永遠太高,達到了一個目標也沒想像中的開心,因為做得永遠不夠好。

應該要努力讓自己做得開心,好不好是其次。而開不開心大多是心態。有個研究說,環境的改變只能帶來短暫的快樂,過沒多久就回到正常;而心態或行為的改變卻能持續帶來好心情。

確定的是,想做什麼就趕快開始,因為時間說多不多,說少不少,只剛好夠浪費在對的人或對的事情上。不過說得簡單,我自己還是一頭霧水,哈。